Trained

tonight, and thank fuck for that! :) It alters my brain chemistry, and keeps me on the right side of who I am.

If that makes sense. Had to do my kata in front of everyone tonight (everyone had to), and I feel incredibly self-conscious. Even though these are people I've trained with for two years, who aren't judging me, who aren't thinking anything but the best for me.

I still feel like a freak! I managed, though, and only had one glitch, so that's something. I know I need to train to stay right side up. Also, I got my first comment today. I have to say, I was stoked. Stoked that somebody read something I wrote! I sound just like a kid LOL.

It has been so liberating, this blog, and I've only just started; part of me just sits and writes, then hits 'post' and it's off out there, into the ether. Part of me agonises (only for a nano-second) that I ought not be so angry, so outraged, so... so! Ah, fuck it, here I am, like it is. And if you don't like it, you don't have to read, eh?

Amazing